have a break, have a kitkat!

Analytica.

classes from 9 to 5.

almost all the puja days booked.

Continuity, determinants, singular points.

Why is it not raining?

kichu pora hochena... :(
anyway, lots of people, food and merriment. :P
my camera is working, i need to find a canon service center. end of my holiday... 10 to 4 tomorrow, 2 boring physics classes, followed by sm. he is so stern and raagi. hard to approach, not expected from a xaverian teacher.
i m tired...let me sleep.

sorry for that long break. i guess silence speaks so many words.
i enter through xavier's back gate these days. the walk is shorter. did i mention it earlier? whatever.
the pressure is on. but i m loving it! its like getting another chance to prove urself...it feels really great, especially after not seeing my name in so many lists.
i m learning new things everyday. growing up has started i guess. no room for being childish.
bengali classes are a big hit for me. i just loooooveeeeeeee them. physics classes are boring (i m being repetitive...i know)
many students have left. now we r around 50 in number. today we had classes from 9 to 4. no break apart from the tiffin one. felt weird while returning, ghostly...body was numb, head was spinning....
ok i hv to go to sleep now. tomorrow i have 5 hons classes. but college will be over by 3. the last period, stats, hobena. hehe!
goodnight folks.

The large crowd in metro or the long walk from the station to the college donot make me frustrated and impatient any more. i have accepted it. i donot expect a less crowded train these days, maybe thats why i dnt feel sad when it arrives with thousands of passengers. the walk is shorter. only the physics classes from 3 to 4-45 on tuesday test my patience. its really a torture...coz a subject as interesting as physics is taught in the most boring way possible and that too for a long period of time.
i have to buy few more books.
college is not as uneventful as before. i meet new ppl everyday and sometimes old friends. the canteen is a big hit. our bengali teacher is really cool! sarcasms and witty comments make the class really enjoyable. also the poem written by rabindranath tagore has a modern outlook! the college people know what we would like to study. in hs our bengali texts had things with which we had difficulty to connect our lives and the familiar environment.
i have been told to follow the rule : enjoy with discretion. thats my new motto...hehe
my didi has brought 70% dark chocolate from usa. break a capsule and put it in your mouth. the feeling is the same... ;)
ok bye for now...goodnight!

I wandered lonely as a cloud

That floats on high o'er vales and hills,

When all at once I saw a crowd,

A host, of golden daffodils;

Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine

And twinkle on the Milky Way,

They stretch'd in never-ending line

Along the margin of a bay:

Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they

Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:

A poet could not but be gay,

In such a jocund company:

I gazed -- and gazed -- but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie

In vacant or in pensive mood,

They flash upon that inward eye

Which is the bliss of solitude;

And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

By William Wordsworth (1770-1850).

Are you linearly independent?

it was raining beautifully today. from the third floor, everything was blocked from view by the consistent water droplets. and when the wind blew now and then, my glasses got wet, my face was splashed with water. how pure it was...and consoling.

i m making my world smaller and smaller everyday.

roj college jete bhalolagena. :(

i love kajal bakshi's classes. tb is ok. otherwise, :(
the journey tires me a lot. i have got used to the crowded compartments, "packed like sardines". but i feel homesick. i know its silly. many of my class mates live as paying guests all alone. still, i feel like staying at home. i was wearing snickers this week but my leg hurts after sometime. tomorrow is saturday! and then sunday!!!! yipeeeeeeee

i want to see how i would look like after 10 years. will i get taller? i want to be taller. and smarter and more intelligent. with a good dressing sense. i mean i dont want to try to look like a teenager at the age of 30. i see many ppl with that intention, when i travel. i would be able to drive then. and would have visited many countries (at least 2). i want to be Dr. hiyapotter. wiser, calmer, matured. i hope blogger.com doesnt erase this post. i wud want to see it when i m 30.

college is teaching me a lot of important things other than abstract algebra and real analysis. i m learning the hard way. but at least i m learning. different shades of personality, various opinions, wow-type backgrounds... they really dumbfound me. and i realise every moment, how lucky i was all these years and how i had dwelled in heaven and complained about it. my school, my friends, my family, my city...everything.
i hv finally started climbing the initial stairs of reaching adulthood. i m now learning how u hv to depend on urself more and more, instead of depending on others. i m my only true friend, best friend, real friend as we used to call our fellow classmates in school. and i m now discovering a new friend in myself who actually cares for me. i enjoy my loneliness as i walk those 15 mins in park street. memories, thoughts accompany me. 4 crossings...they carry different meanings during the to and fro. sometimes i miss those whom i love a lot and wish that they wud be with me. i make myself believe that that will happen someday...
i hate it when the drink spills from the cup and accumulates at its base on the plate. everytime u pick up the cup u have to mop it on the plate.

we are learning really cool stuff these days. we also get to prove things which we take for granted. its very exciting. i get too tired after returning from college. cant study much. today we had 5 hons classes at a stretch, followed by 2 very boring stats classes. i miss paromita aunty and chaitali aunty. they taught well. ok i think i shud go to sleep now. then raat jaga.... :P

i bought a bubblemaker from rother mela. it was really crowded with all sort of people and things. everywhere it was very colourful.

i have made a new friend at college. she is asmita. a complete tomboy...very much straightforward and outspoken and reaaaally smart. not in the bad sense though. she and i went to Mcdonald's today(my idea). i realised it was there near my college when i saw a foreigner with a chocoshake in her hand.
the metro is always so crowded. adn today the door closed on my hand and bag.for a few seconds i cudnt believe that i was able to get into the train.
i love real analysis... :)

stomach upset... :'(
all throughout the day i m having boring food. i pass the park hotel and many others everyday during my walk. oh the smell...especially today, i was fuming with anger! my stomach is upset all the time...didnt get isi i guess :P

almost a week has passed by since my first day at college. time is running...and so am i, every morning...run to the auto stand, to the ticket counter to the platform to park street to college. i for got to mention the SMALL walk in between... :P
it has been very much like school, a little more strict perhaps. well, here u r free to loiter around when u dont have classes. u can go to the canteen or library or cyber room or to the green benches...anywhere. this is a bit different from school. bit different...yea

the maths faculty is more or less superb. the physics teachers who teach our batch are determined to make us fall asleep. i miss our school physics fac. it was awesome.
the canteen has a great lot of things. i had one chicken burger today. it was ok as long as u think that u were having a chicken burger ;)
no seriously it has a lot of things. and it has many benches where u can sit and eat.
i m feeling tired. will write abt this college again sometime later. i have to study now before i fall asleep. hehe
bye!

What a start!!!! ohhhhhh

i m not talking about world cup.

i m soooooo tired. phew!

i was reading raakadi's blog. she writes so nicely! and narrates in a very cool way...i wish i could write like her.
i am hearing weird stories about college. and i have been forced to conclude that st xavier's is not a college in real sense. its a junior school teaching collge stuff. i m talking about the discipline. i have noticed something. i always end up in the strictest of places with the toughest subjects. in school the sections were always studious, my subjects were tougher than most of them (except statistics) and now this college. all the time i see people fooling around, having fun and i have to study and follow rules and be highly obedient.
for instance, my mother. she always acts like a strict headmistress with me. with only me. u should have seen her talk to my big bro and then to me. what a discrimination. (mind u, i have nothing against my brother). i know i m being selfish and not understanding my mother etc etc but what i said is true. i feel like being controlled and too much shackled by should-do's and shouldnt-do's.
i shouldnot be complaining about my mother on the net. thats bad.
:)

i want to paint.

2 more days to go before college starts. too early. but its ok.

Look at the weather!!! why cant it stay like this throughout the year? i love the clouded sky...the gray one i mean. it says, i m going to rain!!

i will be going to college from this Friday. i m a bit scared....of the teachers, the college and everything. i looked at the syllabus of the 1st sem and saw that more than half of it i have covered during the isi/ cmi preps. so i was relieved. i was reading groups. its very interesting, quite different from the mathematics we learnt in our hs. it had been manipulative. here u need to understand carefully. but its really cool! i m trying to cover things by myself as much as i can so that i wont have much problem understanding the professors. i used to do this in class 12 maths tuition too.i didnt wait for the teacher to teach me things coz he did that in a very boring way. so i read good books and learn by myself. it takes more time but things remain under my control.
oh i love maths!

Admitted to xavier's with maths hons!