List of facts i havent accepted yet

1. Pontai passed away (4days)
2. Didi passed away (11months)
3. Dadu passed away (13months)
4. Alan's kidneys failed (2013, Dec)
5. Alan gave up math (may, 2014)
6. Alan gave up studying
7. I broke up with Alan
8. I get bad marks even if I study
9. I am not with Alan anymore
10. See 1 to 9.