baaje chinta

paglami porikhar aage

Do you have one of those days when you are dissatisfied with everyone around you? today was one such day for me. man, whats up with everybody and, me? i cant change anybody except for myself. oh that same old saying. but its kinda true. noone is a voldy out there, cant even hate them damn it! i guess my famous venn diagram theory works only. i feel sorry for ma, dada, patadidi. and am sick of the other two ditto beings. i mean just look at them! they are just carbon copies of themselves. no wonder they dont get along. but I HAVE TO get along with both of them and that too with a smiling face. darn! everybody blames everyone else! i really pity us. the humans. we are so helpless at times. and lonely. no GOD or something comes to help us out. its us and only us. hats off to us! oops i used too many us's. oops again! :P
i always try to shut myself up inside my own world. but cant avoid the reality always, can i? thankfully math is so abstract.
i m feeling so negative now.

take a pencil and piece of paper and do hijibiji on it very badly. then that will describe my mental state. or maybe u take out something from the refrigerator and make it half warm in the oven. that cold and hot feeling simultaneously when u eat it, may also do the job. my head is so heavy, more than few kilos. i m happy and sad eksathe so there's a restless feeling inside me. cant concentrate of course that's why i m blogging. should i list the things which r bothering me? ok
1. i cant decide which topic to give a presentation upon. one teacher suggested analysis but i cudnt find anything, another suggested "something new" which gave birth to the nexr problem
2. i want to do cantor sets or continued fractions as suggested by mm but my partner wants to do patterns badly. now initially it was me and asmita only. i had requested mriganka to join us. he has good knowledge abt maths and number theory specially. he is a good guy. but now if i dont let him do patterns then he will be disappointed. 3. the teacher whom i mentioned first was against such recreational topics and he likes me and even praises me in front of the others. now if i go against him, he may be dissatisfied and things may turn nasty.
4. i m being,almost by mental force, taken to the departmental picnic on sunday. in the evening there's a b'day party to attend. close friend. i have a biye bari the next day, and the day after it is saraswati puja. so all my evenings r gone and i still have homework to do.
5. ma is back to her form. she made me cry in the morning due to her "nice" behaviour for the last few days. maybe this is the 5th problem but it has a very big effect.

so u see, i m in a total mess.
dinner time.
bye

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what is the difference??

 

My clean room :)

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I just cleaned my room. dont tell ma, she was right abt that "chokhe araam laage". :P i will post the pic tomorrow. :)

Statistics practical is so mechanical. i have to calculate the squared deviation of each of the 33 four digit numbers. just imagine the stupidity of the whole thing. i found a good book on linear algebra in the library but thanks to that stats prac, i couldn't go through it satisfactorily.

i luv wednesdays!
went to gaaner class with ma. bad experience. i hate ppl who nag.

anyway bye

College starts with a BLAST! Had a great day. i realised today that i had missed kb and tb very much :)
i realised another thing...1 month left! and i had been so scared.....phew! found out that i have covered the major portions more or less. classical algebra still remains to be dealt with.
i wish i cud take pictures more often, like on roads, college, day to day stuff, etc. but i cant control the whole of my camera still. and many features are absent too. specifically, i miss high optical zoom. i have to learn a great deal about the usage of flash. to me, its the toughest job. also the shutter speed.after my sems are over, i will study abt the light thing on the net.
sometimes, especially during the pujas i often wondered why i m taking pictures of ALL the idols and pandals and stuff. i mean after a few days, i wont even take a look at them. i dont see my previous year's puja pics.so you see, i m a little uncertain about the objective of taking photos and hence not good at finding the right objects. anyway, time to go! bye...

Holiday!

.....then it was time for icecream!!! obviously i am an expert in choosing the right one. originally it was black forest sundae but i modified the 3 scoops' flavour and turned them to chocolate. hehe :P
it was really tall and fat....loads of icecream and brownie and chocolate sauce..... and 4 cherries!!!(chordi had 3 of them, baba had 1)
3 of us dived into the sea of icecream and chocolate. actually the icecream was meant for me, but they couldnt resist. when all of us were fed and icecreamed/lassied. we started towards chetla. the sky was the stage of a great light and sound show...some fireworks didnt happen, some were really amazing. 3 of us got dolchut intentionally and went off to see idols. 10 30 to 11 30. then home.

Why is everyone scolding me??

Anyway, this year's kalipuja celebrations were really different. and "something different" attracts me highly, these days. the 2 days before yesterday were really a bore...i got stuck inside a container whose size wasnt too big.

but yesterday was fun. went to kakar bari for baaji fatano. i was behind the camera mostly. just loved the smell of the firecrackers. and it was always "BOOM!!!!" -ing all around. 2 of our tubris flopped. but otherwise everything went well. especially the chorkis (asmita has this appropriate nickname in her para). then everyone ate sweets and a huge round table conference was held over 1. shud we go to dine somewhere?
2. which cuisine? 3. where shud we go? 4. pandal hopping or dinner?

after 20 mins we stood in the middle of nowhere. i had made up my mind before leaving my house that i wont return without seeing allllll the pujas. i had missed them last year for my selection test. now that this terror period is over and that peaceful times are here once again (for only a few days tho.... my sems are coming up)i WONT MISS CHETLA KALIPUJA!
but chamunda was pretty much disappointing since the huge size has been decreased and the light effects were gone. some stupid person had given this stupid idea of hanging a jhar in the pandal....
anyway, next i found myself walking towards newalipur, over the durgapur bridge.

WHERE THE HECK ARE WE GOING???
to dine.
I WANT TO GO TO PANDAL HOPPING!!!
First, we r dining outside.
WHERE??
somewhere in newalipur.
BUT WHAT ABOUT THAKUR DEKHTE JAWOA??
hobe hobe...sob hobe. x( x(

it was beside kowloon. veg. it had an icecream parlour. we were 10 in number. they had masala/plain dosas/badas. i had "onion tomato capsicum cheese pizza". shouldnt pizzas ALWAYS have onion, tomato, capsicum, cheese in them???


TO BE CONTINUED....

I will be back shortly.

I had a great weekend (non-academically)!!!
Photos of saturday are on facebook.
i finally went to a cinema and watched a movie after 10 months. hehe