i learnt a lesson today-- donot cross ur limits. i needed to learn this. i m happy.

things first happen in a simple way. then in course of time, they complicate. but they appear simple to u still coz u have become complicated too! then one day u do some crazy things and expect a simple consequence. but what happens next surprises u and then u fall hard on the cold stony floor. THUD.
this has happened to me a number of times. but do i never learn? no. i do the same mistake again and again. i give myself excuses...."this situation is different", "i will be careful this time onwards", "i was not myself", "it was his/her fault"....
my mind is becoming smaller and smaller, my thoughts more stereotype. one day i guess, the reverse of big bang will happen and "nothing" will be created out of "something". wow i m talking physics....hehe.
i wish i knew what would happen to me after a few months...coz like everybody else, i also fear the unknown.
i m too lazy. i always want immediate success...another example of my impatience. i grow impatient of myself too. why am i like this? why cant i change? why cant i solve sums quicker? u can run away from people, storms, floods, cyclones, dementors, voldemorts, cockroaches, but u can never run away from urself. i always dream of a better "me" but end up being worse. i always think about myself. there are so many things that i hate about myself...
i know i m wasting time....
does GOOD always belong to good people?